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About Me Member Deviously Deviant ARF19/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 3 Years
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  • Current Residence: Straight up your ass.
  • Interests: Drawing (Sturf), Comics (Witchblade, Fathom, XXXHolic), Video Games (LoZ, Bioshock, Mirror's Ed
  • Favourite movie: The one that I just saw and liked at that moment.
  • Favourite band or musician: NIN, Vast, Son Of Rust
  • Favourite genre of music: Industrial
  • Favourite artist: Luis Royo, Michael Turnner, Jim Lee, Victor Garcia, Natalie Garza
  • Favourite poet or writer: Laruell K. Hamilton
  • Favourite photographer: Don't have one yet
  • Favourite style of art: Original and Bold
  • Operating System: Not fucking vista...
  • MP3 player of choice: iPod right now. Probably will switch soon.
  • Shell of choice: Chocolate....>>
  • Wallpaper of choice: Something off of here :)
  • Skin of choice: Heh heh, oh Pyramid Head!!!
  • Favourite game: Hands down Zelda: Majora's Mask. Common! It actually took LoZ out of it's little box!
  • Favourite gaming platform: Microsoft is going places with that XBox 360, but I'm still a Nintendo girl :3
  • Favourite cartoon character: Yuko off of XxxHolic, gotta love a drunk <3
  • Personal Quote: Talent can not be taught but patience can.
  • Tools of the Trade: Tooth picks and soda cans

Past Present and Future

Mon Nov 23, 2009, 1:14 PM
  • Mood: Angsty
Sorry guys, I'm on bit of a rage rampage lately. Bare with me.

Why is it that right when I put everything behind me and all is forgotten, a tiny piece of the shit form the past lands on my shoulder and just blows me back to square one.

Yeah I'm not going to lie just to look good and say everything is fine and dandy because its not. I'm still confused, angry, and hurt. I do get to points when it is in the past and I can move on but somehow things keep popping up and slamming me in my face with new details and new bull shit.

It was such a big aspect of my life and maybe you didn't realize that but it wasn't because I depended on you. Shit I did everything I could to stay out of your way unless it was an emergency. I learned the hard way that even then, it wasn't acceptable to ask for a favor. I tried to pay you back for everything that you had done for me before. It wasn't much but I tried. I loved you guys so much. That was my fault.

I made you my life, I trusted you with every aspect on my being. I aimed to make you happy if you had a shitty day. I did it so you felt better and I got to see you happy.

I wanted nothing less for my best friends.

But somehow everything became tangled up for me and it became numb for you. That is okay. You're happier now. You're better now. Shit is perfect for you now. You don't feel like you're needed constantly. You have all the time in the world for yourself.

Thats okay. I just want you to know that while you were still my friend, it was fucking awesome. Yeah, we were children back and I know you are embarrassed by it but that time in my life was amazing. I'm happy to say you guys made my past worth remembering. Worth missing.

In this journal I am only being selfish. I just needed to get a small piece of word off my chest so I can breathe once more.

By this time next year I will be gone. The plan is to move to Huston by next October. I know I had told some of you we would be going to Dallas but V and Kitty have family who live in Huston.

I'll give you guys for info on that when I get the chance. As for now thanks for the ear. Blogging helps me out tremendously.

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:iconsiamesedream666:
Thanks so much, that's really sweet of you!

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:iconflipflip5felipe:
nice drawings....AND KITTAHS!!

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~ Chuck Norris on Mr.T
:iconflipflip5felipe:
you're welcome :)

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“I can never hang out with him in a building, why you might ask? The reason is because the building would explode. You can't hold such awesomeness in one building.”

~ Chuck Norris on Mr.T
:iconmyfantasiworld:
Thanks for the :+fav:, much appreciated.

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Kingdom Hearts: TKW --- *MyFantasiWorld
Conker's Clubhouse --- ~TheCockAndPlucker
Gears of War Fanclub --- ~GearsOfWarClub
:iconnu-mi:
Thank you so much for the :+fav: :rose:

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. varium et mutabile semper femina ♥ .
:iconmyfantasiworld:
Thanks for the :+fav: and :+devwatch:

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Kingdom Hearts: TKW --- *MyFantasiWorld
Conker's Clubhouse --- ~TheCockAndPlucker
Gears of War Fanclub --- ~GearsOfWarClub
:iconundertheumbrella:
AH, THANK YOU for being like the only other person who is into Anya and Marcus and actually draw them! They're a hard couple to find!
:iconmyfantasiworld:
Lol, it's no prob. =)

True, but I'm sure more people are going to get into it soon after they read Jacinto's Remnant. ;)

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Kingdom Hearts: TKW --- *MyFantasiWorld
Conker's Clubhouse --- ~TheCockAndPlucker
Gears of War Fanclub --- ~GearsOfWarClub
:icondaphneiphigenia:
thank you for the fave :heart:
:iconundertheumbrella:
It was a beautiful pic!! Thank you for putting it out there :D
:iconemmav:
Wee - thankies for the fav. ^_^

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:iconmapthesoul:
Lyssaaaa, this is Skee. I got a new account. 8]

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Abraham Lincoln
:iconjdstone:
Uh, I mean, Thanks for the Fav!
:iconblackvragor:
Hey! Merry Christmas!

I hope you're having a good one! :)
:iconlemontea:
Hola! Thanks for the favourite. I'm glad that you liked it. Rock on! :)

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